My world is on my desk, defined partially
By items that pull spaghetti thoughts to encompass
Not quite the whole of my life, but a three-fourth bowl of it:
Two nails leftover from attaching northern Thai instrument to the wooden wall
Of my new room that is perched atop the wobbly outdoor stairs
That are so slippery in the mornings when I creep down in my stocking feet;
Acer Service receipt from my Alpha Switch 12 that died in its sleep
But arose again Lazurus-like under warranty covered repair.
Playdough that helps spaghetti brain concentrate in composition class,
And 3 empty envelopes that were intended for repaying friends for bills
Incurred in the moving into said new room.
Note and a card from two kindred spirits living in the same house,
And hot chocolate from a friend who left the tropics of Thailand for the snows of Minnesota.
Scrap of paper with a half-finished poem about hunger,
Which reminds me of the half-finished coffee with milk on my desk that the ants have found,
Which makes me wonder if ants on a coffee high can sleep at night.
A glass bottle from short lovable friend with contagious laugh who teaches K2 students,
Passport that enables me to go home in a few days (which makes me wonder
If they remembered to trim the hooves of the donkey with the long ears that waits at home),
And “to-do” list of things to do before I go.
Tablet full of college notes from friend that says on the front, “Say ‘yes’ to new adventures,”
The electric bill that needs to be paid by the 30th and I wonder if the new Seven Eleven people
Are as friendly as the ones at our old house.
White phone with the Thai number 9 on the back to represent the late King of Thailand,
Sticky note with new password for gmail, Kindle with leather cover, and 4 pens,
Easy to read version of “Uncle Tom’s Cabin” which I used to teach English to little Thai boy with the laughing eyes,
Who liked to use Donald Trump as his subject when making up sentences for practice.
Journal to my future husband who hasn’t shown up yet to read it,
A plaque from a friend who moved to Malaysia that reminds my soul to be still, instead of constantly tracing spaghetti;
A hammer for problems that need hammers, duct tape for something I cannot remember,
Cheap sunglasses from the SanPathong market man on the day we went to see the buffalo and cows,
And Breaking Free, a book I should return to the church library after having it for 3 years;
A Thai Bible that I still stumble through as I read, in the rare times I read it,
A book called “How to Study in College” that hasn’t been read because I am too busy studying,
Article by Toshi Yamamoto at his presentation at Payap, which helped restore my hope for modern Christians,
And a cup from Pong Horse Park that previously held green tea, (and I wonder if they got my message about tomorrow).
A receipt of money withdrawal, a candle that has been lit only once or twice,
And finally a tiny glass ball with dandelion fluff to remind us to follow our dreams. I lift it high.
Watch it spin in the air.
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